My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Today I felt like starting

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

in a post. I want to be remembered

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

no like which do people call me

sorry i am texting like a slav

i was tempted to lie about my name

or never left

ahnaf abrar

abrar?

like first name

it is hopeful

feel you

1

what do you mean

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

plato

It Will Get Lighter

have you read

we need to be deconstructing our identities

is everyoneback on tumblr now

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them