the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.


The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

the site i am dreaming

so an active mazelike process

feel you


idk

as in

propensity within someone

I Write Goodbye Letter

It Will Get Lighter

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

i really havent

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
this will be about a slug

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

not their contents

...


its performative

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

abrar?



It Will Get Lighter

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it