ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
which magnetises chains of pins
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like
text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru
shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by
(oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always
interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read
texts.
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media,
both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they
collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just
after dusk, I have nothing to
do, I'm watching
them, trying to figure it out.
your feed looks like my tumblr
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems
annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder
where it goes in the day.
It's
dusk
in a snowy
forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It
bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.