I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.

Worse Lift

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

It Will Get Lighter

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Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Better Lift

IWGD

hello reader,

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

whats your name?

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

plato

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

its good

It Will Get Lighter

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

thank you

idk

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

in a post. I want to be remembered

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

magnetises a pin

or never left

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