with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

December 2025

that looks like my instagram account

i really havent

Thank you, Jack

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

1

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

its good

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Lift Analysis

magnetisation/form

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

this will be about a slug

He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

i understand

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models