Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

Worse Lift

Today I felt like starting

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

autonomy of learning

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

we need to be deconstructing our identities

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i was tempted to lie about my name

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

what do you mean

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

all that is to say

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation