We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

13, H, grate

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

Rain, starting

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13


I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

as in

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

division of reality is straying away from it

magnetisation/form

I am below everything.

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

its performative

all that is to say

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine