with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
really i want the internet
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
as in
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
yes
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
Today I felt like starting
"Put a blanket."
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
hiding from the rain
currently
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl
but i respect your search
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