isaac
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
but really the thing should be autonomous
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it
have you read
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
was it worth it
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
no longer writing in the third person
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
i have read not even 1 book
was it worth it
idk
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
yeah
lol
feel you
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
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