It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

no longer writing in the third person

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

Better Lift

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

hiding from the rain

I am below everything.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever


Rain, starting

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

but really the thing should be autonomous

autonomy of learning

its performative

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too. 

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my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

all that is to say

i love it here

idk

i dont understand magnetisation

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i have read not even 1 book

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49