the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

Rain, starting

Thank you, Jack

Style

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

        13       |
                |
                |
            H   |
                |
                |
. . . .         |
. . . .         |
. . . .         |
. . . .         |
                |

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever