Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

you cannot feed someone truth

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

as in

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Rain, starting

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this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

magnetisation/form

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

1

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Better Lift

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

no longer writing in the third person

It Will Get Lighter

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak