it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

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Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17


the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Rain, starting

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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no longer writing in the third person

kind of mythopoesis

but i respect your search


i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

currently

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it