the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i understand

its good short few pages

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

sorry i am texting like a slav

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

or never left

was it worth it

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

ahnaf abrar

hiding from the rain

Rain, starting

and the fake qualifier

i really havent

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

feel you

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

whats your name?