i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

like first name

i really havent

lol yea

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this will be about a slug

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

It Will Get Lighter

no longer writing in the third person

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

ahnaf abrar

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

I am below everything.

fw

that looks like my instagram account

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

i have read not even 1 book

what do you think my name is

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

currently

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

yeah

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

it is hopeful


magnetises a pin

It Will Get Lighter

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.