this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

feel you

idk

yeah

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

not their contents

so at the end

its performative

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

...

i really havent

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

i have read not even 1 book

December 2025

or never left

brb i will read and reply sincerely

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged