in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
we can only engage in such a way
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
so an active mazelike process
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
Better Lift
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.
hiding from the rain
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
as in
But seriously, thank you, Jack
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
He went in there with a camera to film it before he moved out of the building. He didn't think anyone would believe the story if he didn't have proof.
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
I am below everything.
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
so at the end