i really havent

we can only engage in such a way

ahnaf abrar

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

i want to do that too

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

all that is to say

we need to be deconstructing our identities

plato

so the method has to be autonomous

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

god being the centre magnet

isaac newton

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

abrar?

its good