we can only engage in such a way

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

feel you

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

like first name

have you read

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I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

all that is to say

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

so the method has to be autonomous

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

its good

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

like magnets

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

that looks like my instagram account

Better Lift

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things