it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine
plato
lol
i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason
so the method has to be autonomous
abrar?
feel you
i was tempted to lie about my name
like first name
autonomy of learning
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
...
yeah
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
we need to be deconstructing our identities
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
not their contents
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
yes
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
Today I felt like starting