a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was
HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that
the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece
in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality
should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic
hypertext
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Live Document Forever ⚠️
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
we need to be deconstructing our identities
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
god being the centre magnet
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator
consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.
