I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

like magnets

that looks like my instagram account

or never left

lol

what do you think my name is

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

December 2025

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

Slug

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

the site i am dreaming

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

not so on: yvf(wthw)

all that is to say

ahnaf abrar

was it worth it

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

i was tempted to lie about my name

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.