ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

its performative

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

magnetisation/form

propensity within someone

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

you cannot feed someone truth

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

no like which do people call me

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

like first name

have you read

so the method has to be autonomous

was it worth it

1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

i want to do that too

not their contents

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

division of reality is straying away from it

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

bro i read nothing in my life

is this you as well

send your tumblr

or never left