The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

really i want the internet

brb i will read and reply sincerely

13, H, grate

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

its performative

It Will Get Lighter

propensity within someone


but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

as in

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

ahnaf abrar

magnetisation/form

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The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

bro i read nothing in my life

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

was it worth it

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext


i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

and the fake qualifier

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it