okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

all that is to say

idk

fw

send your tumblr

It Will Get Lighter

autonomy of learning

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

much more tactility

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

no longer writing in the third person

division of reality is straying away from it

hiding from the rain

so at the end

i want to do that too

and the fake qualifier

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

your feed looks like my tumblr

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

it is hopeful

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

ahnaf abrar

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

yeah

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

barren land

so an active mazelike process

It's

dusk