Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

kind of mythopoesis

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

was it worth it

yeah

sorry i am texting like a slav

magnetises a pin

whats your name?

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

i really havent

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

isaac newton

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

thank you

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

we need to be deconstructing our identities

not their contents

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

i love it here

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

brb i will read and reply sincerely

isaac

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

ahnaf abrar