I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

as in

its performative

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

propensity within someone

not their contents

isaac

sorry i am texting like a slav

god being the centre magnet

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

ahnaf abrar

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god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

no i haven't really read anything

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

lol yea