barren land

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

I am below everything.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Better Lift

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

was it worth it

its performative

no longer writing in the third person

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

...

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

IWGD

Today I felt like starting

autonomy of learning

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

and the fake qualifier

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

fw

or never left

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

not their contents

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books