so the method has to be autonomous

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Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

its performative

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

we need to be deconstructing our identities

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

abrar?

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

13, H, grate

so at the end

magnetisation/form

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

plato

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos