I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

or never left

its performative

all that is to say

plato

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

magnetises a pin

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

ion

we can only engage in such a way

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

and the fake qualifier

what do you think my name is

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

really i want the internet

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

like first name

i see a website

abrar?

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

and the fake qualifier

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given