I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

Slug

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

December 2025

fw

and the fake qualifier


god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

so at the end

ahnaf abrar

like first name



i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

so an active mazelike process

bro i read nothing in my life

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

IWGD

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

abrar?

is this you as well

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i really havent

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

send link


part of an old note. It will get lighter.