but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
Today I felt like starting
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
"Put a blanket."
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
I am below everything.
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
no longer writing in the third person
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
i see a website
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."