i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i dont understand magnetisation

whats your name?

ahnaf abrar

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

god being the centre magnet

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

this will be about a slug
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She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

It Will Get Lighter

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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. way too specific.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

"Put a blanket."

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

thank you