it is hopeful
a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext
Today I felt like starting
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
hiding from the rain
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
much more tactility
its performative
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
magnetisation/form
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
we need to be deconstructing our identities
as in
i dont understand magnetisation
isaac
idk
you cannot feed someone truth
lol
i was tempted to lie about my name
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
plato
was it worth it
i understand
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
i want to do that too
so an active mazelike process
what do you think my name is
not their contents
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books