way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

December 2025

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

this will be about a slug

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

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Lift Analysis

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

and the fake qualifier

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

I Write Goodbye Letter

hello reader,

ahnaf abrar

autonomy of learning

and the fake qualifier

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Rain, starting

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

It Will Get Lighter

as in

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.