so the method has to be autonomous

lol

abrar?

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

ahnaf abrar

whats your name?

and the fake qualifier

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it


like first name

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

plato

we need to be deconstructing our identities

After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

Actual born-Londoners aren't LARPing like this, they sold their shite family home for a million pounds and moved to Malaga years ago. They have their culture and they've taken it elsewhere.

December 2025

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.


Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.


ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

in a post. I want to be remembered

Thank you, Jack