but i respect your search
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more
personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more
romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned
and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre
of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a
breakdown of common interpretations:
and so on.
not wanting the rhyming / clanging
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
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confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
2 (actually index). two is company
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
The studio designs some piece of media to perpetuate the marketable concept of
Real London, while the real London is hollowed out by hollow bankers or
whatever. Not pulling on that thread. But the yuppies don't mind because
they're free to iterate on Real London without any competition from real
London because it's too concerned with its slow eradication. And there's nice
flats to live in now or whatever. The yuppies can begin to inhabit their Real
London.
really i want the internet
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing,
etc.
Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
Rain, starting
what do you think my name is
It Will Get Lighter
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
