was it worth it

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

propensity within someone

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

as in

we can only engage in such a way

Thank you, Jack

kind of mythopoesis

so at the end

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

so the method has to be autonomous

so an active mazelike process

its performative

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos


Worse Lift

part of an old note. It will get lighter.