in a post. I want to be remembered

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

much more tactility

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

kind of mythopoesis

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

autonomy of learning

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

no longer writing in the third person

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Worse Lift

not their contents

but really the thing should be autonomous

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Style

what do you mean

really i want the internet

god being the centre magnet