okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
was it worth it
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
i want to do that too
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
.The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.
i really havent
have you read
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
...
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
was it worth it
in a post. I want to be remembered
sorry i am texting like a slav