Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

that looks like my instagram account

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

but i respect your search

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

It Will Get Lighter

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

currently

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

i see a website

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

you have a beautiful account btw

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

"Put a blanket."

Rain, starting

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

division of reality is straying away from it

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

so at the end

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate