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It Will Get Lighter

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

13, H, grate

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

in a post. I want to be remembered

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

part of an old note. It will get lighter.
fw

your feed looks like my tumblr

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

Lift Analysis

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

no like which do people call me

god being the centre magnet

Worse Lift

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

abrar?

He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out of Real London and into real London, a discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.

what do you think my name is

its good

barren land

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

I am below everything.

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.