feel you

bro i read nothing in my life

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

its performative

"Put a blanket."

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

not their contents

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

much more tactility

lol

no longer writing in the third person

in a post. I want to be remembered

so the method has to be autonomous

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

as in

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

yeah

ahnaf abrar

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

like first name

fw