We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

or never left

i understand

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

wait what is that


i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

we can only engage in such a way

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

i really havent


nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

yeah

It Will Get Lighter

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

idk

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

so the method has to be autonomous


lol yea

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

Rain, starting

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet