the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

but really the thing should be autonomous

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

in a post. I want to be remembered

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

all that is to say

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

so at the end

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

it is hopeful

sorry i am texting like a slav

lol

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

magnetises a pin

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.