Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
Better Lift
Today I felt like starting
hiding from the rain
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
.
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
It's
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
so an active mazelike process
magnetises a pin
As I'm trying to tell my Korean colleague / fresh meat that this is abnormal, that most people in England aren't like this, the host of the party emerges from the bathroom to a roar of laughter and applause. He's a fat middle aged Frenchman and he's changed into traditional Indian dress and a turban. He looks fucking ridiculous. I try to back away, to avoid the inevitable photo of me in this moment that will one day appear to ruin my life, but everyone is crowding around, trapping me in the middle of it.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.