Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Rain, starting

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

13, H, grate

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

no longer writing in the third person

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Picture

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

IWGD

It's dusk in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox. It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache. I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

"Put a blanket."

it is hopeful

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

thank you

Worse Lift

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

It Will Get Lighter

It Will Get Lighter

its performative

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."