the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

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that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

Today I felt like starting

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

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like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

all that is to say

that looks like my instagram account

propensity within someone

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.