We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

but i respect your search

currently

December 2025

lol

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

send link

that looks like my instagram account

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

is this you as well


mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

was it worth it

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ahnaf abrar

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

so the method has to be autonomous

Lift Analysis

sorry i am texting like a slav

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

Rain, starting

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

wait what is that