a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

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Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Slug

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

was it worth it

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

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this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

send link

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

you cannot feed someone truth

propensity within someone

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

so the method has to be autonomous

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Picture

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation